so i finally turned 21 and things have begun to look different...its that age where u start feeling that you are a teenager all over again! well, one is neither an "adult" adult nor is one a kid..of course one is not a kid u see...but life changes..and if u start working like how i did..u realise that u are neither taken seriously as an adult nor are pampered like a kid...but then whoever ever got pampered in a workplace

well sorry for the digression but i guess that life at 21 is just okay..its rolling and i guess im just trying to roll along...a steady relationship, a passionate heart and stuff...

i feel calm in a sort of way that is beginning to disturb me... am i becming an unresponding, uncaring person who is least bothered about responding to stimuli? humpph..i think im being harsh on myself by saying all these things..i shud be glad that im talking less and listening more(something that i cud never accomplish ever in my life!)

well im 21 now and life sure is changing..i have to and there an immediate need to act like an adult now...i mean yeah i can be myself at times but most of the times i gotta be an adult....sighhhh how life changes for ever!

Also i wanted to write a post on how i view my life now that i have turned 21..i mean isnt 21 suposed to be some sort of a milestone in one's life?
lets reserve all that for the next post...

its been more than two weeks since i left the paradise city and returned to my rut...and i miss him badly now. Yup he's gonna join me here in a month's time but ONE MORE MONTH? god..i cant bear it..there are lonely times when i wished he was here. But then i am also happy for him cos he's building his network, well actually strenghtning the existing one there so the stage is set to be stormed my him and his talent...he's very busy there working...we talk evryday so sometimes it feels that there is no distance at all..But i miss seeing him..esp after our second expedition to paradise which was a very touching expereince..also im happy that things are goin so strong between us.. Im also getting better as in im not all that ill-tempered now.Well i need to wait and watch for my angry spells. But paradise really cooled me down. It was a therapeutic expereince for me. even he acknowledged that i had cooled down to a very pleasant and relaxed state...i love it and i love him...

hmmm....got nothing to say today..just trying to update the blog...will be writing much more later.not in the mood to introspect and all...

My second trip to paradise was the most beautiful to have happened since the first. I had such a great time that i didnt wanna come back to my normal life and get entangled in this rut again...anyway life gotta move on rite..

college has begun.classes are picking up. Im gonna be more active this time because of the society whose coordinator i am this time..Im liking my work. At least it prevents me frm feeling like a loner and a loser!

I am waiting for my better half to return from paradise. Lover will come back around August end.I am restless without babes. We were so close all throught our trip to paradise and when we had to part ie when i had to return while he stayed on, we were so sad. He had moist eyes the night i was packing my bags. And then when the morning came and i had to leave, i just couldnt control myself...I was in tears and said goodbye to mom and dad and left..We were in the car. BAbes drove and i wud look away towards the window trying to hide my face that was smeared with tears..i was silenlty sobbing. We hugged before leaving and i cud see that he was lost and disturbed..later that night wen i reached home, lover sent an sms saying that i took away all the charm of teh house and lover cant imagine life without me..that long sms makes me cry every time i read it....

I cud see that babes was also disturbed. After all, two weeks of total togetherness had got us so very close that parting like this was not easy. But of course, we didnt part as in really part. Lover is coming soon and im waiting for the good times to begin once lover is here.

have you guys noticed that the toolbar(if thats what it called!)right above the place where you enter the blog entry reads FUKD...this is cool...whoever invented it~!~!

F: for bold
U: for underlining
K:for itlaics
D: for gawd knows what HTTP crap~!~!

oh ..now i know what it is for~!~!

looks like nobody cares even in the blog world!! sigh!

...left for the internship at HT...by the end of the week i would have done approx. 10 stories over a period of 5 weeks..i think its a bad score..okat lemme pull up my socks and do more stories people.....

Things are sad. But i dont want them to fall apart..and if they do, i will be responsible for it.because im the one who troubles him. and now even his friends are telling him how bad i am..that i just talk and dont listen to anyone..and what sort of parents i have that dont even care about me and where i go and stay...bu the truth is taht im fooling them..they arent to be blamed..his friend told him that we both are LIVING A LIE..it hit him and he started askingme when will i tell them about us. but what shud i tell them..im just so tongue-tied..i cant open my mouth abt anything to them..i havent been close to them..so how can i tell them abt something that is sooo close to me..can anybody help me with this..tellme how to tell me parents abt my several-years long relationship...

yesterday was world refugee day..i did a story..check it out here..and tell me how you find it..

http://www.hindustantimes.com/StoryPage/StoryPage.aspx?id=e3b9e947-5e10-4024-a2a0-69086187c862&&Headline=A+home+away+from+home