http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/en-UShttp://backend.userland.com/rss092http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/55/8289a56f56a529a3423e88986dc395_160x200.jpg <p>Of lately, i have been enjoying myself regularly... With parties, exhibitions and fashion shows to cover, the beginning looked very promising. It still looks promising but im wondering what lies ahead. The best thing about being a journalist is that one gets to meet creative, interesting people from all walks of life. Also, i have learnt to become more chatty, people-oriented and congenial which i really like. I mean, i remember one of my friend telling me something when we guys were 15 or 16 which i havent yet forgotten. She said that one should u should take up journalism only if u have the confidence to walk up to any stranger on the road and start a conversation with him.her. With me, i think it came the other way round. It was after i plunged into this profession that i realised that i better have the confidence to walk up to anyone and start a meaningful conversation. And i guess it has helped me a lot. And since you meet a lot of people, u learn quite a few things from them too. Personally i feel that i am less diffident than i what i used to be. And im looking forward to more experiences and opportunities that will help me in enriching myself with some good knowledge.</p> <p>OMG, never mind if all what i wrote in the previous paragraph sounds bookish. I thought maybe i should sometime see life in a more serious light. Now that its done, i guess i can bring back my funny vein!!<br> U know, being a feature journalist means that you get to command some (if not a lot) authority over people who invite you to cover events. At times, you are also offered freebies(it is common for Loreal to give away shampoos etc to journalist at its fashion events), not that u really look forward to just these kinda things. This happens, but infrequently. Also, one is provided a free pick-up and drop by PR people, which i feel is a relief...especially since most events that we cover are late-nite stuff nd it makes no sense for a journalist to cover it if she is not ensured a safe pick and drop...so i belive it is more like a duty for the PR guys..</p> <p>But everything gets terribly hectic. Sometimes you end up having no time for urself..U leave at noon for work and come back early next morning after covering a crazy fashion part only to wake up next morning again and rush for work...But it doesnt mean that we journos dont have our share of fun too. When free drinks and food are incentives, we spoil ourselves and enjoy our own party at these parties.....</p> <p><img src="/img/smilies/icon_cool.gif" alt="B)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2008/07/24/journo-joyride-4492534/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2008/07/24/journo-joyride-4492534/Thu, 24 Jul 2008 13:24:18 +0200 <p>so i finally turned 21 and things have begun to look different...its that age where u start feeling that you are a teenager all over again! well, one is neither an "adult" adult nor is one a kid..of course one is not a kid u see...but life changes..and if u start working like how i did..u realise that u are neither taken seriously as an adult nor are pampered like a kid...but then whoever ever got pampered in a workplace<img src="/img/smilies/icon_rolleyes.gif" alt=":roll:" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>well sorry for the digression but i guess that life at 21 is just okay..its rolling and i guess im just trying to roll along...a steady relationship, a passionate heart and stuff...</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2008/06/20/life-at-4339539/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2008/06/20/life-at-4339539/Fri, 20 Jun 2008 09:07:41 +0200 <p>i feel calm in a sort of way that is beginning to disturb me... am i becming an unresponding, uncaring person who is least bothered about responding to stimuli? humpph..i think im being harsh on myself by saying all these things..i shud be glad that im talking less and listening more(something that i cud never accomplish ever in my life!)</p> <p>well im 21 now and life sure is changing..i have to and there an immediate need to act like an adult now...i mean yeah i can be myself at times but most of the times i gotta be an adult....sighhhh how life changes for ever! </p> <p>Also i wanted to write a post on how i view my life now that i have turned 21..i mean isnt 21 suposed to be some sort of a milestone in one's life?<br> lets reserve all that for the next post... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2008/06/20/i-feel-calm-4339468/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2008/06/20/i-feel-calm-4339468/Fri, 20 Jun 2008 08:47:09 +0200 <p>its been more than two weeks since i left the paradise city and returned to my rut...and i miss him badly now. Yup he's gonna join me here in a month's time but ONE MORE MONTH? god..i cant bear it..there are lonely times when i wished he was here. But then i am also happy for him cos he's building his network, well actually strenghtning the existing one there so the stage is set to be stormed my him and his talent...he's very busy there working...we talk evryday so sometimes it feels that there is no distance at all..But i miss seeing him..esp after our second expedition to paradise which was a very touching expereince..also im happy that things are goin so strong between us.. Im also getting better as in im not all that ill-tempered now.Well i need to wait and watch for my angry spells. But paradise really cooled me down. It was a therapeutic expereince for me. even he acknowledged that i had cooled down to a very pleasant and relaxed state...i love it and i love him...<br> <a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1846532" title="n612022186_214953_7491"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/532/1846532_757026828e_s.jpeg" alt="n612022186_214953_7491" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/08/01/i_miss_him~2736011/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/08/01/i_miss_him~2736011/Wed, 01 Aug 2007 05:20:57 +0200 <p>hmmm....got nothing to say today..just trying to update the blog...will be writing much more later.not in the mood to introspect and all...<br> <a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1835455" title="cepolina2cat"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/455/1835455_c1d57076ac_s.jpeg" alt="cepolina2cat" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/07/28/im_disinterested~2714776/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/07/28/im_disinterested~2714776/Sat, 28 Jul 2007 07:32:12 +0200 <p>My second trip to paradise was the most beautiful to have happened since the first. I had such a great time that i didnt wanna come back to my normal life and get entangled in this rut again...anyway life gotta move on rite..</p> <p>college has begun.classes are picking up. Im gonna be more active this time because of the society whose coordinator i am this time..Im liking my work. At least it prevents me frm feeling like a loner and a loser!</p> <p>I am waiting for my better half to return from paradise. Lover will come back around August end.I am restless without babes. We were so close all throught our trip to paradise and when we had to part ie when i had to return while he stayed on, we were so sad. He had moist eyes the night i was packing my bags. And then when the morning came and i had to leave, i just couldnt control myself...I was in tears and said goodbye to mom and dad and left..We were in the car. BAbes drove and i wud look away towards the window trying to hide my face that was smeared with tears..i was silenlty sobbing. We hugged before leaving and i cud see that he was lost and disturbed..later that night wen i reached home, lover sent an sms saying that i took away all the charm of teh house and lover cant imagine life without me..that long sms makes me cry every time i read it....</p> <p>I cud see that babes was also disturbed. After all, two weeks of total togetherness had got us so very close that parting like this was not easy. But of course, we didnt part as in really part. Lover is coming soon and im waiting for the good times to begin once lover is here.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/07/25/missiing_paradise~2696475/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/07/25/missiing_paradise~2696475/Wed, 25 Jul 2007 04:02:54 +0200 <p>have you guys noticed that the toolbar(if thats what it called!)right above the place where you enter the blog entry reads FUKD...this is cool...whoever invented it~!~!</p> <p>F: for bold<br> U: for underlining<br> K:for itlaics<br> D: for gawd knows what HTTP crap~!~!</p> <p>oh ..now i know what it is for~!~! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/07/18/fukd_have_you_noticed_it~2655535/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/07/18/fukd_have_you_noticed_it~2655535/Wed, 18 Jul 2007 06:37:26 +0200 <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1734206" title="ist2_3051032_anybody_listening"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/206/1734206_b828ed031a_s.jpg" alt="ist2_3051032_anybody_listening" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a></p> <p>looks like nobody cares even in the blog world!! sigh! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/27/is_anybody_listening~2529118/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/27/is_anybody_listening~2529118/Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:22:18 +0200 <p>...left for the internship at HT...by the end of the week i would have done approx. 10 stories over a period of 5 weeks..i think its a bad score..okat lemme pull up my socks and do more stories people.....<br> <a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1733823" title="news_hindustan_times_logo"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/823/1733823_709157f4b9_s.jpg" alt="news_hindustan_times_logo" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/27/this_is_my_last_week~2528232/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/27/this_is_my_last_week~2528232/Wed, 27 Jun 2007 09:48:27 +0200 <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1733778" title="20051130121948-276535-sad-butterfly-girl"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/778/1733778_7fde2201e9_s.jpg" alt="20051130121948-276535-sad-butterfly-girl" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a></p> <p>Things are sad. But i dont want them to fall apart..and if they do, i will be responsible for it.because im the one who troubles him. and now even his friends are telling him how bad i am..that i just talk and dont listen to anyone..and what sort of parents i have that dont even care about me and where i go and stay...bu the truth is taht im fooling them..they arent to be blamed..his friend told him that we both are LIVING A LIE..it hit him and he started askingme when will i tell them about us. but what shud i tell them..im just so tongue-tied..i cant open my mouth abt anything to them..i havent been close to them..so how can i tell them abt something that is sooo close to me..can anybody help me with this..tellme how to tell me parents abt my several-years long relationship... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/27/are_we_gonna_leave_each_other~2528092/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/27/are_we_gonna_leave_each_other~2528092/Wed, 27 Jun 2007 09:28:06 +0200 <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1734244" title="Refugees_India_2006"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/244/1734244_19604dbb8a_s.jpg" alt="Refugees_India_2006" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a><br> yesterday was world refugee day..i did a story..check it out here..and tell me how you find it..</p> <p><a href="http://www.hindustantimes.com/StoryPage/StoryPage.aspx?id=e3b9e947-5e10-4024-a2a0-69086187c862&&Headline=A+home+away+from+home">http://www.hindustantimes.com/StoryPage/StoryPage.aspx?id=e3b9e947-5e10-4024-a2a0-69086187c862&&Headline=A+home+away+from+home</a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/21/lonely_then_read_this~2491713/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/21/lonely_then_read_this~2491713/Thu, 21 Jun 2007 09:26:38 +0200 <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1734248" title="fall_colors"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/248/1734248_0c0cb4d728_s.jpg" alt="fall_colors" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a></p> <p>i think i am at a very difficult juncture of my life..im such an anger-spitting bitch that im troubling even my darling..</p> <p>last night it was too much..everyday we are going to bed with a tiff. i mean i start it and then it just goes frombad to worse..but when it actually comes to sleeping..i snuggle close to him and we smile and we sleep..but last night when we went for the walk it was bad..i get these impulsive reflexes when i just want to do what i wanna at that moment..okay anyways read these articles i wrote for the papaer</p> <p><a href="http://www.hindustantimes.com/storypage/storypage.aspx?id=e4b62662-c71f-47e4-a876-ee4f8288198b&&Headline=Wanna+go+coffee%3f">http://www.hindustantimes.com/storypage/storypage.aspx?id=e4b62662-c71f-47e4-a876-ee4f8288198b&&Headline=Wanna+go+coffee%3f</a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/21/why_am_in_so_moody~2491702/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/21/why_am_in_so_moody~2491702/Thu, 21 Jun 2007 09:23:07 +0200 <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/srv/media/media_item.php?item_ID=1734257" title="happiness"><img src="http://data4.blog.de/media/257/1734257_75a8e74cef_s.jpg" alt="happiness" vspace="5" hspace="5"></a></p> <p>im happy...yes i am..actually i wana begin my entry on a good note.i cant believe that i wrote my last entry almost a year back.. a lot of things have happened since then.</p> <p>come on people hail my new entry..</p> <p>..i went on the trip that was talking about in the last entry...it was nice there.!! we did infact shit in the fields and bathe in the village stream with our petticoats tied above our breasts...</p> <p>and after that i went to jodhpur and jaisalmer in jan..it was nice again..went there with mom and pop, brother to visit my sis who is posted in jodhpur..we went to a real desert-desert..camel rides and lotsa things..lotsa ethnic jewellery for me,,,it is rajasthan after all.mom picked up tons of bed-sheets and chuns freaked on the jaisalmet fort..it is a such a beautiful, small place,,u can see teh whole city io just i-2 hours..most of teh folks there live in and around teh fort and the rest of teh city is only desert..after that holiday..in march i went to paradise..let that place remain a secret..im goin there agin this july..dont ask me where and why...its beauty is preserved in its secrecy...</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/16/im_happy~2462170/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2007/06/16/im_happy~2462170/Sat, 16 Jun 2007 09:42:17 +0200 <p>hahaha me not in a good mood but predenting to be in....hmmm u see this is another one of my resonating hums that i loveto shower uponeverybody here. okay, since we guys havent been intouch for couiple of days now, i got a lotto talk about.</p> <p>first of all, dad is doing wee, he's walking with a little support, im sure gonnabe walkinh by himself by next week. but the chaos at home still haunts me. tahts why these days im meeting baby a lot and puring out all the sentiments and da frustrations..i end college and go to his place and then he drops me whilst goin to work...sooo life is okay..im just getting to know the introvert side of me these days.. college is filled with narcissistic bitches who think no end of themselves , so im a loner these days. my ties with the former "freinds" are fragile, almost broken so im by myself these days and tryingto firnd happiness in watever i do alone.</p> <p>hey i think im gonna go for an exposure trip during my autumn breaks. one college society is orgainsing a trip to a small village in Madhya pradesh wher we'l be working with a grass root organistion, fighting for tribal and dalit rights. its not a fun trip. we're tol that teh village doesnt have loos, so we'll have to shit in farms and bathe in the village river......so im sure its gonnna be a memorable trip..baby was a little surprised and unhappy wen i told him about this thing..but the next minute he said that he cant be bad and wont stop me....he's nice, of course he wasnt being sarcastic and rud eto me wen he said that he cant stop me....butthen he knows that immade of a different material and cantbe so easily moulded into shapes that people want me to be...well sioemtimes i feel that it is just the opposite. i feel that im easily influenced by people..hmmm well fornow , this is enuf... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/09/12/umuaaaa~1118041/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/09/12/umuaaaa~1118041/Tue, 12 Sep 2006 07:05:25 +0200 <p>hmmmm how i love to start my blog entry witha resonating hum..now since its an entry written after a long long time, letme tell ya wat has been happening around..dad came home after s[pending about 6weeks in the hospital..he's getting better,,but the head injury and teh drugs have rendered him little weak. he is a little random when he speaks, cant make sense outta things and mutters also..maybe it is gonna take a while for him to settle and get better..buton the other front he's doin well. he is able to sit up on teh bed and lie down. and yes he's angry also..all in all he's getting back to his original nature...let see..hope he's fit and fine soon..mum is dedicated in his service..and know wat..he even shouts and argues wit her even after being soo frail and weak...but mum spends sleepless nights taking good care of him..even the docs in hospital said that he's coem this far and literally out ofthe clutches of danger zone bcos of the immense family support...</p> <p>sometimes i feel that no matter how broken the family is, wen it comes to out time of need, we become one and and getteh support of everybody around us also...mausis and others have also done a lot....</p> <p>okayi tyhink im pouring out evrythuiung in just one entry..me in college right now...gotta go for a talk now by nina lal kidwai, ceo of HSBC and of course an LSR passout....an inflential lady indeeed... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/08/21/hey_wassup~1056164/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/08/21/hey_wassup~1056164/Mon, 21 Aug 2006 10:26:08 +0200 <p>yup, im sorry cant help changing the title for my post everytime i write...dad still serious...infact his condition weakened just when he was appearing to be gettig fine..his chest infection was bad, he had to be kept on the ventilator again,,, docs are chenging medicines to see the effect..they hope to find him better by this evening..lets see what happens..meanwhile im numb and cant feel anythn, seriously..everythings hazy...</p> <p>bye... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/07/11/me_again_after_a_loong_time~951605/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/07/11/me_again_after_a_loong_time~951605/Tue, 11 Jul 2006 16:26:22 +0200 <p>Hey everybody, how are u guys doin..ive not been around here for a long long time, infact my last post also said that i was returning after looong time...</p> <p>  A lotta things have been happened and happening...my dad met with an accident on the 27th.(last tuesday)..it wa pretty serious..head injuries, multiple rib fractures etc..but the head injury was the most critical..he wa unconscious for a week, still in the ICU...yesterday n day before, he opened his eyes..it was a relief to us..today he tried to speak also when mom went to seehim...so he is onthe path to recovery..but its gonna take some time.thats wat the docs are sayin...well, life at home has almost come to a standstilll, we're in the hospital whole day...we take turns..hope he gets wells soon ...today mom told me that wen she went to meet him, he cried a lot....i just wish he gets well soon.....<br> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/07/05/hey_all~936176/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/07/05/hey_all~936176/Wed, 05 Jul 2006 20:48:31 +0200<p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/07/05/hey_all~935988/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/07/05/hey_all~935988/Wed, 05 Jul 2006 19:42:16 +0200 <p>hey , im back after a lonng long time. ive been very busy these days. im interning with hindustan times, actually their website. check out some of my stories there.check out httabloid.com for my story(the main story in ultra bold headline, also u vcan click on fashion n find a story by me on soccer fashion.tell me how u guys find it...bye will catchya later<img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0"> <img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/18/back_after_a_looong_time~891856/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/18/back_after_a_looong_time~891856/Sun, 18 Jun 2006 19:44:46 +0200 <p>me missin ya badly teddy bear...wanna see u sooo crazily..hmm im sure tomrw we'll meet up after work(this time, its my work)..i applied for internships at a coupl eof places last week .got a reply frma lady frm hindustan times. she aked me to come to her poffice, i went last monda.gave me some piece to write n edit on epiece too. she said she'l get back, she didnt for a week. i thought maybe its not happening , so i spoke to india-today grp for internship.i fixed a meeting at 11:30 monday(tomorw). then the first lady calle dup saying that her boss wasnt in town so she cudnt consult him and call me, so she called me to meet on monday. now tomrw im gonna go to HT n meet her n strt workn there, have to meet her boss first, the editor,lets see wat happens. though i havent informed the india-today guy that i wont be comingthe worst thingthat i wud want to happen is that i get chucke dout of HT n dont havethe alternative to go india-today. but since HT is 99% thru, im sure its fine ther. n since ive got thru the internship there, i need not go to india-today. </p> <p>another thing, yesterday wen the woman calld up she said " i hope u know that its not a paid thing"..though i felt like shit, i said "thats no problem"...i mean how cud they not pay their interns. its not agood sign. its okay that they're giving me their precious experience but c'mon u gotta be nice too. i knw that money was not a priority here for me but it wud've been gud if they had paid me. atleast a stipend which cud 've taken care of my pocket money....<img src="/img/smilies/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":>" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>ill go now, byee bye<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/11/just_another_day_without_u~870704/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/11/just_another_day_without_u~870704/Sun, 11 Jun 2006 19:15:24 +0200 <p>me missin ya badly teddy bear...wanna see u sooo crazily..hmm im sure tomrw we'll meet up after work(this time, its my work)..i applied for internships at a coupl eof places last week .got a reply frma lady frm hindustan times. she aked me to come to her poffice, i went last monda.gave me some piece to write n edit on epiece too. she said she'l get back, she didnt for a week. i thought maybe its not happening , so i spoke to india-today grp for internship.i fixed a meeting at 11:30 monday(tomorw). then the first lady calle dup saying that her boss wasnt in town so she cudnt consult him and call me, so she called me to meet on monday. now tomrw im gonna go to HT n meet her n strt workn there, have to meet her boss first, the editor,lets see wat happens. though i havent informed the india-today guy that i wont be comingthe worst thingthat i wud want to happen is that i get chucke dout of HT n dont havethe alternative to go india-today. but since HT is 99% thru, im sure its fine ther. n since ive got thru the internship there, i need not go to india-today. </p> <p>another thing, yesterday wen the woman calld up she said " i hope u know that its not a paid thing"..though i felt like shit, i said "thats no problem"...i mean how cud they not pay their interns. its not agood sign. its okay that they're giving me their precious experience but c'mon u gotta be nice too. i knw that money was not a priority here for me but it wud've been gud if they had paid me. atleast a stipend which cud 've taken care of my pocket money....<img src="/img/smilies/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":>" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>ill go now, byee bye<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/11/just_another_day_without_u~870703/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/11/just_another_day_without_u~870703/Sun, 11 Jun 2006 19:14:51 +0200 <p>yes im back after alooong time. cant blv that i was writing as many as 3 blogs during my exams but never cared to write after exams got over.guess bloggin was releasing my stress n now that there is no stress im just avoiding it.</p> <p>these days have been just okay..was my birthday yesterday..it was okay. i turned nineteen,guess i shud update my blog profile now!!<br> actually it was a bad day cos i made it miserable for ted. i met him in the morn at his place. saby n ted n me went to ansal plaza cos saby had some work there. after finishing the work, these guys entered the perfume section of d mall while i crossed it n moved out of the mal thinkin that the guys are also comin behind.i looked back n ted was in.i got thescore n i went in to see that he was checkin out some perfume (for me)..now i felt tooo odd n shy n i asked him to come so we'll leave.he asked me to wait n asked to check n smell some perfume.i started gettn a little louder n impatient n asked him to come out now. i didnt want him to buy me anything...but he insisted while i got a little loudr n acted like a baby.saby came n i asked him to tell ted to come out now. but these guys had planned the day in a manner so taht we came here n ted cud buy me a gift.</p> <p>we lft finally.ted was not happy. we three ate out.while comin out of the restaurant ted lit a cigarette n saby too. they sat in the car with their cigs lit n sterted to drive, icreated a scene now asking ted to stop smokin n shouted at both guys for being shameful to smoke n make me a victim ofthe smoke.i hate when these guys smoke. i took ted cig n threw it out.</p> <p>we came home, me n ted after droppin saby n we were together alone now.ted told me that i had insulted him in the mall.he said that he wanted to buy me a present so why did i behave so badly n immaturely in fron t of so many ppl. he told me that idont know how to behave in public n that im no better than raj n ritu. he told me that its okay when im at home but not in front of ppl. ted feels embarrased of me, i let him down, insult him.he really felt insulted in the mall today. i didnt realise it but i guess i was very immature n babyish to do that in fron t of so many ppl. he really wante dto gift me,he said that he thought that i deserved a good present so why did i act so bad..</p> <p>i cries a lot yesterday i fron t of him.the reason why i acted funny in mall was very humble.i wanted him not to buy me gifts..really i didnt want hime to i didnt realise that he also has a beautiful wish to buy something for me...so i made a mess. but thenlater i went to dt with him,we planned to spend the nite too.but plan changed. saby n he had to work at home...so i came back to my home....my parents had forgotten it was my bday till it was evening.i came home at elevan thirt n dad opened d door sayin happy bady, mom was on stairs n said sorry biu i ran upstairs n locked my door wishing i were with ted at the time... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/08/my_birthday~863779/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/06/08/my_birthday~863779/Thu, 08 Jun 2006 19:58:54 +0200 <p>yay yay <img src="/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif" alt=":DD" class="middle" border="0"> <img src="/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif" alt=":>>" class="middle" border="0"> <img src="/img/smilies/grayyes.gif" alt=":yes:" class="middle" border="0"> yes yes yes its my last paper tomorow!! im so excited!! of course not abt the paper but about the hols after that..and also because im gonna meet ted after 3 weeks!!!<img src="/img/smilies/grayyes.gif" alt=":yes:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p>me sooo happy...got a new hairstyle..its not very different but shorter version. my hair had grown out untidily frm behind and i wanted to get them trimmed a bit.but i was in a dilemma cos i wanted to grw them long..<img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"> but i thought maybe i need a trim n after that i can grow the. so i went today..u knw wat? .ive had very short hair(boy cut) for most of my life and despite feeling tempted to grow them i wud think that yes im gonna grow them now..so everytime my hair start gettn long , i get crazy n i wana get them cut short again!!,i look at women who have short hair n want my hair to be short too,i wana get back to my smart short hair. though i have a good texture, my hair are straight too, ideal for a long growth, i wud never grow them. <img src="/img/smilies/grayrazz.gif" alt=":b" class="middle" border="0">.this time i was sure i wud grow them.but when i starte dgetting a lil intidy, i got them cut. but thank god i didnt get a short bob cut..mine are a lil longer than that...<img src="/img/smilies/graysmilewinkgrin.gif" alt=";D" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/31/my_last_paper_tomorrow~844581/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/31/my_last_paper_tomorrow~844581/Wed, 31 May 2006 20:41:58 +0200 <p>hey!!! i remember havin 61 friends on my blog till yesterday, today there are only 60 left....i didnt know that theres an option to "withdraw" like that..but who wud wanna do it, i wonder<img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"> nyways, it is fine with me..<img src="/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif" alt=":DD" class="middle" border="0">...</p> <p>had BIT paper today..it ws just fine.kinda boring u knw.the first section was still tolerable but the next section had 5 Qs outta which we had to do 2. the fisrt one was on digital n analog commnication..and the rest four, all of them were on internet, cyber media, print media n all that crap..i mean, the QS resembles each other so much n im sure our answers will also resemble a lot..basically u had to write the same answer for each Q..it was funny cos we had to stuggle to be differnt in each Q...but the crux n the matter was almost the same..hey im listening to "just go ahead" spin doc, i love the song..hmm sometimes i wonder why is dat i love all these old song...they have that magic which is missing in contmporary songs..i love roxette n other songs like "take my breath away" n stuff like that..hmm im loving it...<img src="/img/smilies/graysmilewinkgrin.gif" alt=";D" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/29/from_61_to~838617/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/29/from_61_to~838617/Mon, 29 May 2006 18:58:54 +0200 <p>tomorw got "basics of information technology)...well as far as the basics are concernd ,they have been brushed up n crammmed only in the past 2days. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_lalala.gif" alt=":lalala:" class="middle" border="0">..so all the best to me..i think im gonna be not very bad..actually one cant tell, they can fuckin give anythn expectin us to it all...lemme pray its only the basics theyre gona give,,otherwise me sacked!<img src="/img/smilies/grayuhoh.gif" alt="U-(" class="middle" border="0"> <img src="/img/smilies/grayconfused.gif" alt=":??:" class="middle" border="0"> <img src="/img/smilies/graysigh.gif" alt=":**:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/28/bit_tomorw~836203/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/28/bit_tomorw~836203/Sun, 28 May 2006 20:46:14 +0200 <p>yup this is gonna be a quick one..hello everybody!!<img src="/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif" alt=":p" class="middle" border="0"> hows every1 there...im kinda busy studn...(actually searchin for study material than studnn)...so cya later..<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/28/a_quickie~836165/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/28/a_quickie~836165/Sun, 28 May 2006 20:33:49 +0200 <p>yup thats what im thinkin exactly.monday is my BIT (basics of information tech) paper..thruout the whole sem, we didnt do anything ab the subject..for the first month, we didnt have a teacher, then came a crazy guy,who thought he was really smart n instead of teching things, wud comment , sumtimes they wud be lewd too. so we told our other teacher(a good one) abt it, the class had to give an application sayin that he was bad n so he was chicked out.actually we wasnt all that bad..one girl in class had partcular probs with her..atleat he had stuff to teach...next came another teacher, this time a lady (a pass out of our own college n our own course)..she was a another character.didnt know anything abt tech..wud ask us to create blogs n check out net newspapers n wud go "oh my god,wat is this!!" wen she saw that in the question papers we get Qs on CAS n Modems n other techy things...so we thought that the previous crazyhead was better.its okay even if he was bad, atleast he cud have given us notes. so he was called back but it was too late..little time n lots to cover.i dont knw wat notes he gave, i got some notes frm a senior(they arent good enuf to pass me)...but here i am now...struggling to find stuff on the net...like i said..INTERNET SAVES!!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/27/internet_saves~833440/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/27/internet_saves~833440/Sat, 27 May 2006 17:05:08 +0200 <p>yay yay IR is over , we left wid 2papers now.next is on mon and the last on thurs...after that....wow wow wow!! fun frolic n fantasies...hahaha fantasies: they include a great trip to one of the best places in the world, among many other fantasies too... im still feeling a lil exhausted even after a sleep of a nice 4hrs..wana sleep again, but i knw i wont get any...</p> <p>well i gotta start with BIT now. it is sumthn that i havent toughed at all...lote to do..also the choices are fewer in NIT paper...hmm time to study now<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/26/ir_over~831017/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/26/ir_over~831017/Fri, 26 May 2006 15:50:39 +0200 <p>got international politics tomrw...best of luck n all th ebest to me...otherwise, its a crazy time for me.... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/25/paper_tomorw~828396/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/25/paper_tomorw~828396/Thu, 25 May 2006 15:29:11 +0200 <p>hey how do you find out who tagged u?? wat options do u follow to find the blogger who tagged u sumthng?? pls tel </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/24/how_do_u~826254/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://charmaine-here.blog.co.uk/2006/05/24/how_do_u~826254/Wed, 24 May 2006 17:41:43 +0200